dear st. elmo #3
I keep writing and thinking and writing and remembering…all as a way to help me move on. I need to keep reminding myself that you are not the one for me. I need to take these thoughts and put them in writing so that I can see them and revisit them. It’s not so much a matter of convincing myself that we aren’t right for one another. I know that. I know that oh so well now. But you know what? At the end of the day, you were someone that I was deeply in love with. All the shit that you may have said or done or vice versa is just stuff. The bottom line is that I loved you. And while I am moving on, I’m not over you yet.
I know you are dating someone else now…you’re moving on in the only way you know how. But are you over me yet? Do I still haunt your dreams and daily life? You would probably answer that yes, you are completely over me. But the person that I knew so well this past year would never be able to get over our relationship so soon. I just wish you could be more honest with yourself.
- Posted in: Breakup ♦ Healing ♦ Heartbreak ♦ Letters to the Ex ♦ Love ♦ Moving On ♦ Relationships
- Tagged: honesty, love, moving on, relationships, soul searching
It is like I wrote this!!! Sounds like we are living the same life. Great blog post!
Thank you for the post…though, I am sad that you are going through the same thing!
Oh, Amy.. it appears we are in the very same stage of breakup hell.
I’m sorry you have to go through this. I know how it feels to love someone so deeply and have them simply turn their back on it. I can’t fathom how anyone can do that and not hurt. Uggh. I swear.. I’m becomming the crazy cat lady– I figure with at least 200 cats.. there’ll be plenty around I won’t feel sad and abandoned.. HAHA!